Who's the greater mess them or me

I wish I knew the right things to say, but I'm horrible with words. And I haven't got a clue on how to relate. A tug in that direction another tug in this direction. My heart breaks and I can't fix things.

What to say when your mind draws a blank. When your heart hasn't been there.

Nothing I say can make it okay.

I feel helpless.

I hate that you hurt.

I hate that I can't mend it.

I hate not knowing.

I hate my naivety.

I hate that I can't begin to understand.

I hate being in the middle of all this mess.

I hate that I care for both of you.

I hate that this ever had to happen.

I hate many things out of incomprehension.

Make me understand. Take me out of this mess that I can't call my own. Help yourself.

What to do? I inherit other people's drama. Here I am stuck in the middle.

If only I understood love

If only I understood what you are feeling.

If only I understood many things.

How can I help you if I can't help myself? Someone tell me what to do?