Goodbyes are the hardest

My fish died today. It's a sad thing. I felt like we've been through a lot the past 2 and half months. I swear, maybe this is a sign. I can't even keep a fish what hope is there for me to even be a relationship.

As I told Tina, from now on I am merely focusing on my career and concentrating on my schooling. Screw boys! They only play games and tend to toy with my emotions. Who cares if you make me smile or if you make me laugh. I don't give a crap if you can make me blush. None of that matters. No sir it doesn't. A crush is a rush, but that's all it ever will be. A reason to make me blush, but nothing will come from it. I'm just realizing that. Time to focus on school, friends, and myself. No need for you.

Plus I have enough drama in my life without you why do I need more. I don't need it. No sir I don't.

I'm just going to enjoy the weekend and enjoy that in 24 days I will finally be leaving my teen years in the past. No longer going to be rendered helpless by a school girl crush. Who needs that not me. Nope.

I know I sound repetitive and as though I am trying to convince myself, but I swear I am turning a new leaf in my life. I've got dreams and never once did any involve a boy. So long to all these foolish thoughts. A mere friend you'll be and that is all. I know that it isn't going to happen suddenly but I hope that I can continue on forward with the least amount of stumbling backwards.