My Mobile Stage

What's the best way to listen to a song? No the real question is how's the best way to appreciate music. Yay. That's more like it.


Headphones? No, headphones serve as a necessary way of listening to music. It's more like a last resort. A way to shut the noise of the outside world, or to block out the noise when the radio on the family road trip gets redundant. Headphones are what make listening to music in public okay, respectful of those around you. They are necessary for bus rides and passing time in between classes. But headphones don't hold any sort of power, entertainment but no experience.

Speakers? A little better than headphones, a way to appreciate the heavier stuff or give you breathing room for the easy listening music that we all have. Or if you're like me they are perfect for when you have to do chores around the house. Plug in your Zune and blast the crap out of all you catchy, billboard 100 stuff. It's better than headphones but anyone can let loose when they are not confined to one place. Who wants to sit still when they don't have to.


The only way to test the jamming ability of a song is to blast it in your car stereo. Suddenly the steering becomes your makeshift drum kit and for a moment you believe you can belt out those high notes. Jamming ability in a car is the testament of an awesome song is, all done within the confines of your own seat.


The only thing that would beat the mobile stage is the real stage. Then again nothing beats live music, it's in your face no apologies, surrounds you and allows you to let go if only for an hour or two. I have learned that a song seems to come alive the moment it revives you when you didn't realize you were not living.

All I want...

Plans never go the way they're suppose to. Yet, we continue to make them. I just wish the things that I look forward to would actually happen. No one can be reached but a select few. This sucks. I mean this really blows. Just once I wish things would go the way I say.

It's not that my friends are unreliable, it's just really hard to get all of us together. Yeah it's the summer but most are busy with summer jobs and having family time before the new school year starts. Not to mention that for the next couple of weekends it's graduation season.

If only things were simple, but everyone has a life to live...right?

Once we figure it out it will be better. So maybe we won't eat Peter Piper Pizza, but that's okay. After all, the place or food weren't what I was looking forward to, no I was looking forward to get caught up in ourselves- the conversation, laughter, and every once in a while the comfortable silence. We could settle down on someone's trampoline on the outskirts of Mission staring up at the night sky. All I want.

So let's get back to when everything seemed perfect. Not a worry in the world...

A moment for reflection

I'm 20 years old, I mess with my hair when I'm extremely nervous. Bite my lip constantly. I trip over my own feet on a daily basis. I ramble when I am processing events. I am shy and introverted until I get to know you and let you in. Protective of those I love, but tend to be a doormat when it comes to matters of myself.

I am heavily addicted to music, having this constant need of "give me more, more" because I can never get enough. I love movies, and watch wishing my life was like a movie. Alas it isn't though I promise my self to go through my life with purpose. I doodle and must permanently have a pen and paper with me at all times. I adore quotes but love making my own.

I try to be a ray of sunshine for those around me because I'd hate to feed the dark clouds that loom around those I love. I believe the best medicine is a hug. I have one dirty mind that not many get to see. I consider myself socially awkward, young and at time naive. Never have I ever felt the need to intentionally hurt someone, unless it's my siblings but that goes without saying. I mean siblings fighting is not new to history of mankind. All in all I'm a good person.

Yet, none of these I believe amounts into a guy seeing me more than just a friend. I'm cute not beautiful. I've never had a boyfriend and I've never been on a date. I've been kissed, but I still feel as pathetic as Drew Barrymore's character in Never Been Kissed.

Those closest to me tell me to be patient, but patience is not what I lack it is hope.

I've given up in ever having a love life. Is it normal to have given up in love completely at the age of 20? I love myself and the way my life is going, so as long as those are in line I don't have a problem with my love life not being in sync with the rest of my life. Here's to the beginning of my 20s. Who want's to start the best 10 years of their life chained down?