A time to appreciate

What are the 6 things I am most thankful for this year?

First and foremost would be my family and friends. It's because of them that I am who I am today. I know cheesy, but I sincerely believe it. I am grateful for all they have done for me and thankful that they have been supportive of me with whichever direction I choose.

Second of all, I am thankful for everyday that I get to spend on Earth with all my loved ones. They make life worthwhile.

I am thankful for the realization that life needed to change before junior high because I would have not walked the path I have if I would have continued on the same path traveled by so many.

Grateful for every quirk that I embody, my tendency to mumble, my rosy cheeks that are a dead give away of being on the spot, and I even love that I am a klutz. Yes all of them I love.

Fifth reason I am thankful for, is every great opportunity that has fallen in my lap and I have taken (within reason of course).

Finally, I'm thankful of the Aggies win over the Longhorns because that means I get to throw it in the face of my uncle and the rest of my family that are all Longhorn fans. Take it like a man t-sips and stop blaming it on witchcraft.

Hope everyone had as an amazing Thanksgiving as I did, and for those of you who took part in Black Friday I hope you got amazing deals.

I hate people who can't say stuff to your face, but have no problem to when you have your back to them

Ugh!!! I hate you! I hate you! I fcking hate you!!!

We weren't even mean when you brought her to family functions. We were nice to her. We allowed her in with open arms. We weren't horrible to her and we never made her feel unwelcome. Then she has to create all this drama, and you the idiot goes right along. What, was the fact of what you did to her make you feel guilty. Not our fault you guys are in denial of how screwed up your relationship is. I mean come on, you cheat on her and knock the other girl up, and she's acting stupid like it never happened. But honestly she has to know if she doesn't then she's an idiot, and if she's trying to act like her "perfect" boyfriend did no such thing then she's an even bigger idiot.

You're suppose to stick with family, but nope you don't do that.

Unlike you I stand by my baby cousin, who's like a sister to me and at one point she was to you too. You know very well that she didn't do anything to your girlfriend, and you go right along with her and turn your back on someone you considered your sister. For what? Exactly you can't answer because it was just because she felt like talking crap about someone, and you just nod your head and agreed. And what does that floozy do? She laughs at the rift she caused between family.

Seriously, family sticks with family not some retarded floozy off the street. I hate her. That girl needs to get a freaking life. She's 20 years old and she's picking on a 16 year old. How very mature? How big of her?

So she wants to start drama. Then, I'll finish it. She wants to pick on someone and call them a bitch. I'll show her the true definition of one and just how much of a one I can be.

Goodbyes are the hardest

My fish died today. It's a sad thing. I felt like we've been through a lot the past 2 and half months. I swear, maybe this is a sign. I can't even keep a fish what hope is there for me to even be a relationship.

As I told Tina, from now on I am merely focusing on my career and concentrating on my schooling. Screw boys! They only play games and tend to toy with my emotions. Who cares if you make me smile or if you make me laugh. I don't give a crap if you can make me blush. None of that matters. No sir it doesn't. A crush is a rush, but that's all it ever will be. A reason to make me blush, but nothing will come from it. I'm just realizing that. Time to focus on school, friends, and myself. No need for you.

Plus I have enough drama in my life without you why do I need more. I don't need it. No sir I don't.

I'm just going to enjoy the weekend and enjoy that in 24 days I will finally be leaving my teen years in the past. No longer going to be rendered helpless by a school girl crush. Who needs that not me. Nope.

I know I sound repetitive and as though I am trying to convince myself, but I swear I am turning a new leaf in my life. I've got dreams and never once did any involve a boy. So long to all these foolish thoughts. A mere friend you'll be and that is all. I know that it isn't going to happen suddenly but I hope that I can continue on forward with the least amount of stumbling backwards.

Who's the greater mess them or me

I wish I knew the right things to say, but I'm horrible with words. And I haven't got a clue on how to relate. A tug in that direction another tug in this direction. My heart breaks and I can't fix things.

What to say when your mind draws a blank. When your heart hasn't been there.

Nothing I say can make it okay.

I feel helpless.

I hate that you hurt.

I hate that I can't mend it.

I hate not knowing.

I hate my naivety.

I hate that I can't begin to understand.

I hate being in the middle of all this mess.

I hate that I care for both of you.

I hate that this ever had to happen.

I hate many things out of incomprehension.

Make me understand. Take me out of this mess that I can't call my own. Help yourself.

What to do? I inherit other people's drama. Here I am stuck in the middle.

If only I understood love

If only I understood what you are feeling.

If only I understood many things.

How can I help you if I can't help myself? Someone tell me what to do?

I live for the cold weather!

Awesome boots, cute sweaters and colorful scarves. This is what I love about the cold.