If only they knew...

So I just may be weird, but I really excited for by baby brother and sister's birthday. In two days they will be fourteen, and I'm so happy for them. Of course even though I am hours away and getting myself an education, I still take some time out of my busy schedule-and believe me this week is crazy I have homework and two exams this week- just to wish them a happy birthday.

Oh they can annoy me but I'd do anything for these two. If only they knew. My bff, Yvonne, says it's the curse of have younger siblings. You can't help but love and spoil them. Which I fully did this year. I can't wait for them to get my presents. All is in order, yeah I even gave my parents instructions for giving them their gifts. I'm talking time, manner and everything. These instructions were further passed on to my older sis who will be overseeing the operation. Yeah I'm a freak like that, but it must be done a certain way.

If only they knew how much I love them.

Gosh I miss everyone back home, I mean I am able to operate on a daily basis, but birthdays make me realize how far I am. I just wish I could do more than wishing them happy birthday over the phone, getting them a gift, and making a homemade birthday card. But I'm here and there back home, and it's going to be like this for several more years. Just have to learn to live and deal with it all.